Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Diggin' with a smile

My brother, where do you intend to go tonight?
I heard that you missed your connecting flight

These lyrics popped into his mind as he was trying to figure out how he got where he was now. Gazing upon the star sprinkled sky he was reminiscing on the last 18 months of his life. He felt some sort of inner peace he had long forgotten about. His life in turmoil made up of only heartaches, headaches and backaches ceased to exist at that very moment and another being took over his body. A peaceful, wiser and more serene being. Many times he felt as if he was a man that was being buried alive by an endless avalanche of problems, disappointments and cards that he felt were unfairly dealt. He never knew why, but he never gave up, constantly reaching for that little light shining through all of it, even though at times it was so dim he could barely see it. He wondered as to what it was that made him, and countless other people keep digging, fighting and holding on to life even though at times it seems as wherever we turn to we get nothing but criticism, anger and lack of understanding. Every being has some sort if inner force driving him towards something better. Was it pride? Was it instinct? Was it a piece of God found inside of everyone? He did not know the answer to this, but he felt it was all of that and more. However, this very moment, everything was different. He was set free, his perspective on life changed from a self-pitying, hopeless one, to a more optimistic and accepting view. He realised that without everything he had gone through he would not be the man he was now; an educated, happy and wise man. A man that successfully emerged out of an almost shut grave feeling on top of the world.
The night was getting colder, he felt a chill run down his forearms and realised he'd better go inside or otherwise he will catch a cold and he didn't want to be sick during his holiday. He reached for the balcony door and as he opened it he saw that instead of the living room he was looking into a dirt filled room with weak rays of light barely protruding through. He was faced with it again...But this time, he started digging through with a smile on his face.

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